Where did we leave off? [JOSH]

[summerw]

Josh smiled back at her. Well good. I'm glad you feel that way." Josh looked at her smile. She had the greatest smile. Seeing her smile, always made him smile. "Well we'll begin with hanging out again. That's a start." He couldn't keep a straight face when talking to Taylor. There never was a dead serious moment between them. He noticed Taylor was flirting. Josh was happy things were normal between them. He looked at her and smiled. "But your assumptions are probably better."

Josh laughed when he heard Taylor giggle. "Of course my pain would be funny to you." He joked. Sitting back down, he saw her shake her head. "Thanks. I try." He smiled big at her. He looked at her and raised his eyebrows. "I know you better then you know yourself." They knew a lot about each other because of the time they shared. She knew more about him then his own family.

Kissing Taylor, seemed so right to him. He didn't want to stop. Josh was happy when she let him pull her on him. He needed this. They both did. He was reluctant, though, when she pulled away. "Woah...why are we stopping?" He looked at her as she spoke. He let a sigh leave his lips. "I missed that too." He smiled and looked into her eyes. "You are the greatest kisser, babe." He said, moving his hands along her hips.

[taylor nicole monroe]

Taylor was excited to have Josh back by her side he always just had this wonderful ability at making her happy. She always felt safe and at ease with him. She knew things might be a little different between them. But she hoped it would not affect those feelings she had. "Yes, we must have a few adventure of our own though I hear we have a alot of party people around here." she commented. "I'm rather nervous about that whole.....scene." she said softly with a shurg. "But I will just have to see where it goes." she said glad to just be talking to Joshua right now. "Yes, mine may be better but a girl always loves a surprise or two." she said with a playful wink. It was so easy to slip into flirting with him.

Taylor could not help but laugh again. "I'm just finding amusment in you way of portraying the pain that has befallen upon you." she said with a laugh. She was just being silly. "It's always fun being around you." she commented with a simple shrug. "Yeah, that's probably true...you know me way to well....sometimes I wonder if that's a good thing or a bad thing." she said with a small shrug. "So tonight we shall we picnic under the stars and be fools...maybe even make a fire to roast marshmellows." she said liking the idea of smores.

a smile broked across her face at his reaction to her pulling away. It was just so adorable. "Thanks..." she said with a smile as she kissed him again her hand moving up his chest to his neck. She pulled back a moment her eyes fluttering open to focus on his eyes. She was taking a moment to process this. She had wondered if he had ever sad those word to his girlfriend how many times had they kissed was she better then her. But she quickly push the thoughts of jealousy aside just focusing on him. her lips moving to kis his cheek this lips again.

[summerw]

Josh cleared his throat. "I went to a party for my sister. It was..." He paused, searching for the right words to describe it. "It was horrible. Drugs and alcohol were everywhere...people were fighting. You could tell they were drunk and stuff." He stopped and looked towards her. He was starting to hate parties. "It just wasn't my scene anymore, you know? I'm glad I'm out." He exhaled, hoping it wouldn't change her mind about him now. He was becoming more of a chill guy then a party guy. He smiled as she started flirting. "Taylor Marie, I must tell you that you are a huge flirt!"

Josh laughed. "Befallen upon me? Such vocabulary Ms. Knightly." He smiled at her. I'm thinking it's a really good thing. No one knows you more then me. That could mean something. Be a sign even..." He raised a slight eyebrow and smiled flirtaously. He looked at her. "Your ideas just keep getting better."

"Anytime." He deepened their kiss as she slid her hands up to his neck. Josh, with his hands on her waist, pulled her closer towards him. When she stopped and let her eyes look into his, he felt it. He knew then this was wrong. As she kissed him again, the thoughts left his mind temporarily. He slid his hands under her shirt. He stopped suddenly, pulling away from her. "It was her, wasn't it?"

[taylor nicole monroe]

Taylor listened as Joshua told her about a party he went to. she was honestly not to keen to party it up again but she did not want to be entirely antisocial. But staying away from drugs was at the top of her list right now. So maybe she should take Joshua's lead. "Good I'm proud of you! I have no idea how i would deal in that situation." she said with a small shrug of her shoulders. Taylor could not help but laugh at his comment. Yes she was a flirt and she just could not help herself at times. "Are you calling me out Josh..." she asked quirking a eyebrow at him. "Because I can admit I'm a flirt especially when I'm around you." she said with a smile. "But you flirt back just as much Mr. North." she said playfully.

Taylor giggled she was simply being silly with her words and he was just being cute back. "Oooh and what kind of sign could it be/" she asked with a broad smile. 'Enlighten me." she said tilting her head to the side at him. But a laugh escaped her. "I have many idea swimming around in this head of mine. but I'm more curious whats going on in yours." she said her eyes focused on his.

It was easy fro her to get lost in his arm, his touch and kiss. She was thoroughly enjoying herself. She had hoped she had not ruined the moment but once he pulled away and asked her about her she knew she had. Taylor sighed puling away from him entirely sitting beside him separating herself from him. "Yeah...." of course Josh had picked up on it. "Sorry, I just...." she trailed off shaking her head softly. How could it not bother her honestly.

[summerw]

"I believe you would've pulled through just like me, Taylor." He looked at her. "I think you could do it. But I also don't think you'd ever put yourself in that type of situation." Josh laughed. He was a big flirt. Especially with Taylor. Whenever she said or did something flirtaously, he responded by being an even bigger flirt. "I think I did just call you out...but" He smiled big. "I will admit to being an even bigger flirt. What can I say? A girl hot as hot as you are and I just can't control myself." Josh laughed, playfully nudging her.

"I'm thinking the kinda sign that means something important..." He paused, smiling her way. "Like that we should be together forever. Or no matter what happens now, that we'll have find and have each other later. That enough enlightenment for you?" Josh laughed, sticking his tongue out at Taylor. He shook his head. "I would normally be able to tell you a bunch of stories...but right now you're here and I can't think of anything else."

Kissing Taylor had been amazing. He knew when he brought up Arabella it would go away, but he had to know. So when she got off and sat beside him, it didn't surprise him that much. He exhaled when she admitted it. He reached for her hand and grabbed it. Josh looked at her and knew what he was about to say would kill both of them. "This is gonna sound really selfish Taylor, but..." He paused, letting go of her hand. Josh exhaled and stood. "I can't...I just can't..." He walked a couple steps away from her before stopping and turning back. He looked at her making eye contact. "I can't give Arabella up yet. It's selfish I know. But...I can't break her heart. And I know I sound like a hypocrite because I'm basically gonna break yours. I want you Taylor Knightly...bad. I love you and I want to be with you, but I love her too. I can't choose right now. I still wanna see you, but I can only give you secret affairs or just friendship. You're worth so much more then that though."

[taylor nicole monroe]

Taylor sighed shrugging her should. Who knew how she would have handled it. honestly as confident as she came off at times she was unsure about her stability around drugs. But she nodded in agreement he was right she would not purposefully put herself where she could be tempted. Not right now at least and not for awhile. A wide smile spread across the blonds lips at his words. "So when to hot people get together it's just simply to hard to deny there flirtatious way." she said with a shrug. " Just be careful though I have learned that being a flirt can sometimes get you into trouble." she warmed but a smile slipped onto her face and a wink as well.

Taylor could not help but let a laugh out at his big grand speech of what kind of sign it was. A smile remained on her lips as she spoke. "Oh wow, Who knew Joshua North closet fortune teller." she said playfully in return. "So your saying we must be destine to be together....at some point." she asked only playing along with his words a look of amusement on her face. "Well it's good to know I'm on your mind." she said with a smile.

Taylor sighed as she listened to him speak about her. She had not asked for this. she did not want to hear it. the blond moved to stand up her back to him as she collected herself. "I wasn't asking you to do anything." she said turning back to him. "I'm not asking you to either...." she said softly. "But you will know when I do." she said her face turning serious for a moment before a sigh escaped her. "So...we still on for Kamen's Bluff tonight?" she asked a small smile on her lips as she quirked her brow at him. 'you bring the blanket and something fun and I'll bring a Basket of goodies." she offered quickly changing the subject she was not in the mood to linger on this subject right now.

[summerw]

Josh saw her sort of doubt herself. He hated when she did stuff like that. He wished she saw herself the way he saw her. "You know what Taylor?" Josh looked at her. "You should have more faith in yourself." He looked away as she spoke. "That's exactly what I'm saying!" Josh smiled and looked at Taylor. "Oh and just how would you know that Taylor Marie Knightly?"

He laughed. "I thought you knew I could see the future?" He smiled big at her as she said her conclusion. "Yes...at some point. It could be now or later or the near future. Just whenever." Josh exhaled and looked at her. "Taylor, you are always on my mind." He smiled and took her hand into his. Taylor was the one girl he could flirt with non stop. It came naturally around her. He squeezed her hand. "I love you." Josh said under his breath.

Josh heard her sigh. He knew he was saying stuff she hated to hear. He looked at her as she turned back to face him. He looked away as she spoke. This was as hard for him as it was for her. He felt bad for saying everything he did. He cleared his throat and walked towards her. He took her into his arms. "I'm sorry babe." As he let her go he heard her change the subject. He had to admit he was pretty glad she did. "Kamen's bluff? Hell yeah..." He smiled at her. "I'll just run by my dorm and get the blanket. Meet you there...in 10?"